Just Stop

I feel like a part of me is gone. Like, there's nothing left inside of me. I feel so alone, all the time. And now the truth that I don't want to tell anyone...that I've only told to two people..I don't want anyone to know. But they'll find out. Eventually. It's not something easy to hide. But I guess. I just wish I knew if I was really feeling a lot of what I'm feeling or if I brought it on myself. Oh life..can't you just..stop?