Breathe

Hyper to quiet
Suddenly a change in mood
I walk to the empty room
Sit on the bar stool
Lean my head back against the cabinet
Breathe.

I hear footsteps
You appear at the door
You walk by being completely oblivious
I sigh with relief
Close my eyes for a moment
Breathe.

I walk alone
Entering my worst fear
Trying to avoid conversation with everyone
I approach a black table
I hop up and curl into a ball
Breathe.

I sway myself
Back and forth slowly
You approach with courage and caution
Wrap me in your arms
"I'm always here if you need to talk.
Breathe."

Together

I sit
Bored, anxious, ready.
I stand, impatiently
Waiting.
My heads bobs
Side to side.
My fingers snap
In sync with head bobs.
My mouth opens
Words and lyrics pour out.
A sweet, steady tune
You look my way.
I catch your attention
Without any knowledge.
I continue my song
You stare in awe.
Time passes
I hold an end note.
I cut off
Done.
I turn
Meet your gaze.
I smile nervously
Not aware of your hypnotism.
You smile
"She got attitude!"
You tell the room
"She can SING!"
I stand in shock
As you admit I should be on stage.
I as Dorothy
Running the show.
You approach
I freeze.
An arm around my shoulder
A kiss on the head.
Two smiles
One flash.
One hug
Two hearts.
You pull me in tight
My head on your chest.
We walk
You hold me
And I feel invincible.

Over and Over

Over and over
Degraded, belittled, and unnoticed
You take me as a rug
And walk all over me
There's nothing more I can do
Than just sit by and watch it all happen
That time has passed
And I'm stepping up
I won't take this anymore
Something within me
Continues to lie down
Let you get under my skin
But it's over
And I' done
All that you've done to me
You continue to mock me
But no more will I allow it
You will be shut down
And ave no power over me
No ability to kill me inside.

Unity

Hands intertwined
Hands being laid
The unity of strangers
Glory hovers in the air above
They stand amongst one another
They shake and convulse
Tears from destruction
Of walls they've build
Gathered together in the Spirit.

Sinking Quickly

Why do I feel so heavy
So weighed down
As if the world sits upon my shoulders
As if a ball and chain are connected at my feet?

I should feel weightless
Like a feather
completely relaxed
In the presence of the Lord.

I guess this me
It's who I am
Held down by a world of bricks
And sicking quickly.

Worship

Flags flying
People jumping
The music plays.
The quarter notes leap
As the cymbals dance.
Hands are lifted
High above their reaching point.
Hands are clapping
Praise to the Holiest
God above all.
Shouts of thanks
Screams of worship
Cries of love and laughter.
The lights are dim
Voices are raised.

Where to Start

In the door and up the stairs
Tis there I did believe
Around the corner there was a room
Waiting just for me.

I walked right through the threshold
And pounced upon the bed
I grabbed a pillow in my hands
And in it buried my head.

As I fought to hold back tears
The doorknob started to turn
The door had opened just a bit
To reveal a face so stern.

His face suddenly loosened
To show me he wasn't just a man
But a father watching over me
A man trying truly to understand.

A few words were exchanged in quiet
“Last night you gave me a scare”
I looked him in the eye to respond
“It's nothing new or rare.”

He hangs his head to his chest
And wishes with all his heart
He could help me take the pain away
But he doesn't know where to start.

If Only I Knew

My world is hangin upside down,
Lonely and confused.
I just can't seem to figure out,
Which is really you.
When we're alone you talk to me,
Just like it's only me that you adore.
But in with all the many crowds,
It's me you do ignore.
I'm at a loss for everything,
I don't know what to do.
I wish you'd act like yourself,
Show us all the REAL you.
You're like the perfect stranger,
No one knows who you are.
One person with your friends,
Another when we're chillin in the car.
If only I could figure out,
And just know what to do.
If only you would show us all,
Just which side is the real you.

By:Me Date:Sept. 3, 2007 Age:15

When I Feel Cold

Baby there's so much I wanna tell you,

But there's only so much my heart will let me say.

I've been hurt in the past,

And all that's tempting my to just walk away.

In my mind I'm more than confused,

But In my heart I love you still.

What you've put me through,

It's all just another excuse to make me ill.

You keep apologizing for stupid little things,

But all I want it this;

For you to be there for me when I need you most,

Give me a hug & take the time to notice.

We're too close to let something like this fail on us,

So show me some love.

I'm sure we can make it through,

As long as we keep looking above.

If you can touch my heart,

If you can touch my soul;

Make sure you're there for me,

Whenever I feel cold.

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How is it,
That you're the only one who ever understands?
Why does my heart still love you,
When I don't know what you think of me?
You are always there for me,
Even when I seem 'stand-offish'.
The only one my heart can talk to,
Is also the only one who can tear me down and build me back up.
Will you be there for me,
Or will you let me fall all on my own?
You know what I'm thinking,
Even when everyone else is confused.
My love can't let you go,
But my mind is telling me to leave.
Could you say everything will be ok,
Could you take my hand and lead me?
Because this time I promise,
When you hold out your hand,
I'll take it and never let go.

Remember?

Remember when it rained,

When the volcanoes were quiet,

How the flowers grew?



Remember how high the birds soared,

How the ocean flowed,

And the grass grew?



Remember how the sun rose,

When the wind blew,

The trees swayed?



Remember when the mountains stood,

The fires burned,

How the stars came out?



Remember how the moon shined,

How the leaves would glide,

And when the rainbows had color?



Remember when the planets alligned,

Remember when the clouds parted?

I remember,

Because that's when it was you and I.

Thank You

I lay in the quiet,

The gentle sound of Iris,

Lullying my aches away.

The darkness closes in,

But the light of your words,

Form a shield around me.

The arms of God hold me tight,

As you speak of strength and enpowerment,

I can feel the healing take over.

Your words are encouraging,

They are easy to digest,

And keep my sanity alive.

My faith rises with the dawn or morn,

The numbers on the clock climb higher and higher,

Cares are flying out the window.

Weightless and surrounded by angels,

Head resting on strong shoulders,

My being hoovering in the Heavens.

Thank you for lending me your strength,

Thank you for being there with me all night,

Thank you for being everything a best friend should be!

Angel

With the eyes of an angel you can see into my soul,
Look right through me & know my every flaw.
With the touch of an angel you can calm me,
Feel my ever changing heartbeat & heal my wounds.

With the wings of an angel you lift me when I'm down,
Transport me to a safe haven & guide my every step.
With the arms of an angel you carry me when I'm weak,
Catch me when I fall & hold me when I'm sick.

With the mind of an angel you know just what to say,
Know my feelings & follow my very thoughts.
With the grace of an angel you are swift by my side,
In sync with my steps & keep me from stumbling.

With the faith of an angel you always encourage me,
Raise my self-esteem and give me hope and trust.
With the care of an angel you put me to bed,
Watch over my being & help me through hard times.

With the love of an angel you gentely kiss my lips,
Hug me and hold me tight & keep me safe by your side.
You are my angel as I am yours,
All these things & more, I know you're sent from above.