September

Today Chris and his father came to church. His dad seems kinda stern, but he liked me :) Which is a TOTAL bonus. After church, Mom, Dad, Jax, n I went for pho(Yummiful!). After that we all went back home for like an hour and then met at the Capital City for shopping time. Jacquie pulled every excuse in the book as why she was late, but when she finally showed up, Chris was with her(aka why she was late) which TOTALLY made my afternoon. Mom n Dad went their own way n Jax, Chris, n I went ours.
After mall time, Chris and I went back to Jacquie's with her and we all watched The Marriage Counselor(Which was amazing, btw). I was leaning on Chris' shoulder(my neck still hurts from that) and it was soo comfy. :)
Jacquie went into the kitchen to help her mom make dip for the chips(our fam recipe). During this time, the movie was still playing. Chris put his finger under my chin, lifted it up, leaned over me, and kissed me. Basically while this was going on, we were oblivious(obviously). He then leaned back and looked at me. It was at that point that Jax n her mom come parading in with the chips n dip, clearing their throats. Chris then continued to explain that he was stretching(which he was also doing...just across the front of me). They won't stop making fun of me now >_< ha.
After the movie was mostly over, we dropped Chris at home. We hugged for like, 15-20 minutes. He kissed me goodnight and put off going inside as long as possible. While texting earlier, we were contemplating sleepover ideas with his sister and Jacquie. We'll figure it out tomorrow... :)

Lyrics to a Song I Started

This is a song I started writing the other night. It just cam to me, so I started writing it down. I know the tune I want too. This is just kinda what I have so far. Need to finish the second verse and maybe do a third verse. Not sure yet. But let me know whatcha think!



VERSE 1

So much to say to you
Seems dreams are comin' true
But I need to know
If we'll ever grow

It's like the perfect scene
Playin' right in front of me
The stop button's callin my name
Or should I let it play?

CHORUS

It's like a, whirlpool or summer
Mixed with, a little bit of winter
You don't know what to say
You don't know where to start

And it's kinda like, you're goin' crazy
And, everything's so scattered
You're just confused
Don't know what to do

VERSE 2

You're heart is racin'
And, you're mind is pacin'
What's he gonna say
Should I lead the way?

BRIDGE

It's complicated
It's, messin' with your mind
Just tryna find out
If he's a guy of a different kind

Oh, oh, oh, ohh

.

Cold
Tired
Alone
Is there no one
Who will notice
Who will wrap their arms around me
Comfort me and be there
Or just hold me?
This is what it means
To be a starving artist
Many of the greats
Have been inspired by these trials
Many of the greats
Have felt this same emotion
These same emotions
And the feeling of losing it all.
I know this all too well
Is there anyone out there
Who cares about me?

Big Brown Eyes

A raised hand
A final salute
A single tear
Those big brown eyes
Fixed
Upon that flag
Of read, white
And blue that sways
In slow motion in seems
That sis at half-staff
Upon that strong, tall post.
A quivering hand slices
Downward through the air
That seems to be thickening yet
Closing off.
Those big brown eyes shed
Yet another tear
As she looks around.
All of these coffins
Draped with American flags
Holding bodies that
Are now deceased
And she can't
Help wondering if
All these lives
Were taken in vain.

Through his eyes

Man it's kinda hot out here
But I got my swag goin
What, who said my name?
I know that voice
Over there, Ebony?
Wow, here she comes!
She always looks so cute
And look at that bright smile
Never leaves home without it
A high-five?
How 'bout a hug instead?
Yep, God I love this girl
"What are you doin?"
Why would I ask that?
I'm so stupid sometimes!
But shes still smiling
Good sign!
Aw, family time :)
No, dude where you goin?
Stop walking, I wanna talk!
Ugh, sorry baby tigris
The way she walks...
She's got swag too
Attitude, but in a good way.
Shes lookin back at me!
smile and wave
I can't help watching her
I really like her but
I don't wanna screw this up.
She's so smiley and cute
Fun to be around and talk to...
Man
I NEED that girl right there.

Dancing Flames

The flames danced
Across the burnt wood
That smelled of cherry
And spice settled in timbers
Ashes burning like tiger lilies
She sits, entranced
By these flames
That dance around
Switching wood partners
With every leap and bound
Curled up, arms tying her legs
Together in the cold
And dark of the night
Alone but feeling unashamed
Because of the love
That dances inside of her
Just like those flames
That dance with wood
Alternating partners
In the sinister shadows
Of a night
Illuminated by the love
Within her heart.