Helloooo everyone. I know it's been a while since I acually blogged or..anything to that effact, but I figured it was time for a check in. How are we all doing ladies?? After a not-so-skinny September, I've been working my ass off trying to get back into the swing of things.
The last week of September wasn't too bad, but ever since, I've been working harder. It's a lot easier to not eat and lose weight when you're at work, especially for me. See, I work in a warehouse where I'm on my feet eight hours a day. Not to mention, I have to do extra work because no one at my job wants to do their job. What they're getting paid for, I'm not entirely sure.
But I usually eat nothing on my first break, & nothing for breakfast. On lunch break, I haven't been eating anything :) But this week it's been mostly grapes. But, I work it all off in the end. Actually, right now, I'm using one of the best inventions ever; a tread desk. All it is, is a staack of shelves basically with a treadmill underneath so you can work and workout, at the same time :)
Anyway, back to my update. I am down aproximately, 7 pounds since last week!! It's amaz9ing what portion control and some walking can do for you. I'm fluxuating, but mostly about 3 pounds away from my first goal weight of 145 pounds. I know, I'm fat. Then, it'll be another 10 pounds to get down to 135 pounds. My ultimate goal weight is about 120 pounds or whenever I feel I'm thin enough..if that's possible.
It actually made me smile today, when my pants kept sliding down at work. Only because it made me realize that these same pants had at one time, barely fit me because I was so fat :) So it was just a reminder that I'm losing weight even when I feel I'm not. But the scale doesn't lie. I even weigh myself twice(once & again right after) just to make sure it's the same number.
But that's all for my update. Things are going well! Hope all of you are working your way to a smaller October! :) Good luck ladiesss! Love, Hope, & Zero Calories haha
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Random Quotes & Verses
Quote
Get knowledge—but don't depend on your knowledge. Seek to be wise—but don't rely on your wisdom. Work hard—but don't trust in your hard work. Work smart—but don't stake everything on your own cleverness and efficiency. Be ethical—but don't lean on your morality. Make plans—but don't hope in your plans. Save money—but don't trust your savings. Add up your numbers—but don't count on them. Value people—but don't depend on people.
Unless you spread your wings and fly, you will never know how high you can go.
Biblical Reflections
1 "What we have at the center of our attention is what has us. King David is both a positive and negative example of this principle. Whatever he gave his attention to would either "make him" or "break him.""
2 God loves us enough to accept us as we are, but' He loves us too much to leave us that way. Could anything be better? (Philippians 1:6).
3 Nothing is so relevant as the eternal. A Jewish man named Asaph learned this thousand of years ago while struggling with feelings of envy, disappointment/ and doubt (Psalm 73).
4 We see things not only as they are, but as we are. (Titus 1:15).
5 To change we must want something else more than what we now have. Maybe this is why the Scriptures say we will find the Lord (and the heart-changing help of His Spirit) only when we look for Him with all of our heart (Jeremiah 29:13).
6 Live for what you will not regret when you die. What profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? (Matthew 16:26).
7 "The secret of abundance is found not in what we have, but in what we enjoy (or are thankful for). Paul expressed this in his letter to the Philippians (Ch. 4). Nothing produces wealth more quickly or certainly than a heart of gratefulness."
8 The poorest of all are those who don’t know who to thank for the sunshine—or who to trust in the dark. Isaiah said it with an edge. Even the ox knows his master, and the donkey knows where to find his food (Isaiah 1:3). Those who don't know their God are poorer than both of them.
9 You can learn more from your critics than from your admirers. One group likes us the way we are. But in the end, it doesn't matter why the other group is telling us what we don't want to hear (Proverbs 27:6; Psalm 141:5).
10 When I am in the presence of God, it seems profoundly unbecoming to demand anything. Francis Schaeffer. No one understood this better than our Lord, who said, “Nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done.” (Luke 22:42)
11 Attack problems, not people. We can get the two so confused until I remember the words and spirit of Christ (Matthew 5:43-44).
12 For some troubles. God has not given us answers—He's given us His Son. That was His gift to the thief on the cross (Luke 23:43) and to us.
13 What God thinks of us is more important than what we think of ourselves. Paul seemed to have this down pretty well. He showed that. be not only took the opinions of others with a grain of salt, but his own as well (1 Corinthians 4:3-4; Romans
14 Fear God—not to run from Him, but to Him.
This might be even more basic than loving Him (Proverbs 1:7; 9:10).
15 Get knowledge—but don't depend on your knowledge. Seek to be wise—but don't rely on your wisdom. Work hard—but don't trust in your hard work. Work smart—but don't stake everything on your own cleverness and efficiency. Be ethical—but don't lean on your morality. Make plans—but don't hope in your plans. Save money—but don't trust your savings. Add up your numbers—but don't count on them. Value people—but don't depend on people. I'm intrigued with that lengthy New Testament letter that doesn't ever mention the subject of idols by name—yet abruptly ends with the words, "Little children, keep yourselves from idols" (1 John 5:21).
16 We are saved by God's mercy, not our merit; but by Christ dying, not our doing; by trusting, not by trying. If it comes down to having one or the other, we’d do well to trade all of our assets and education for this one thought (Ephesians 2:8-9).
17 "Worse than blindness is sight without vision." — Helen Keller Reminds me of Jesus, who said, "Take heed that the light which is in you is not darkness" (Luke 11:34-35).
18 Wise are those who look at others with the same generosity they offer themselves, and who look at themselves with the same critical eye they have for others. Yet look what we do! We blame others –to get the attention of ourselves. (Matthew 7:3)
19 "I found that the desire to have is soon replaced by the fear of losing. Solomon wrote a whole essay about this (Ecclesiastes)20 Use things and love people. Don’t use people and love things. Why after so many complex and profound things are considered, do the most important things in life seem so simple"
Vision Quotes
I skate to where the puck is going to be, not where it has been.
— Wayne Gretzky
Necessity can set me helpless on my back, but she cannot keep me there; nor can four walls limit my vision.
— Margaret Fairless Barber
The man who radiates good cheer, who makes life happier wherever he meets it, is always a man of vision and faith.
— Ella Wheeler Wilcox
A task without a vision is drudgery. A vision without a task is a dream. A task with a vision is victory.
What’s the use of running if you’re not on the right road?
— German proverb
A genius is one who shoots at something no one else can see, and hits it.
Get knowledge—but don't depend on your knowledge. Seek to be wise—but don't rely on your wisdom. Work hard—but don't trust in your hard work. Work smart—but don't stake everything on your own cleverness and efficiency. Be ethical—but don't lean on your morality. Make plans—but don't hope in your plans. Save money—but don't trust your savings. Add up your numbers—but don't count on them. Value people—but don't depend on people.
Unless you spread your wings and fly, you will never know how high you can go.
Biblical Reflections
1 "What we have at the center of our attention is what has us. King David is both a positive and negative example of this principle. Whatever he gave his attention to would either "make him" or "break him.""
2 God loves us enough to accept us as we are, but' He loves us too much to leave us that way. Could anything be better? (Philippians 1:6).
3 Nothing is so relevant as the eternal. A Jewish man named Asaph learned this thousand of years ago while struggling with feelings of envy, disappointment/ and doubt (Psalm 73).
4 We see things not only as they are, but as we are. (Titus 1:15).
5 To change we must want something else more than what we now have. Maybe this is why the Scriptures say we will find the Lord (and the heart-changing help of His Spirit) only when we look for Him with all of our heart (Jeremiah 29:13).
6 Live for what you will not regret when you die. What profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? (Matthew 16:26).
7 "The secret of abundance is found not in what we have, but in what we enjoy (or are thankful for). Paul expressed this in his letter to the Philippians (Ch. 4). Nothing produces wealth more quickly or certainly than a heart of gratefulness."
8 The poorest of all are those who don’t know who to thank for the sunshine—or who to trust in the dark. Isaiah said it with an edge. Even the ox knows his master, and the donkey knows where to find his food (Isaiah 1:3). Those who don't know their God are poorer than both of them.
9 You can learn more from your critics than from your admirers. One group likes us the way we are. But in the end, it doesn't matter why the other group is telling us what we don't want to hear (Proverbs 27:6; Psalm 141:5).
10 When I am in the presence of God, it seems profoundly unbecoming to demand anything. Francis Schaeffer. No one understood this better than our Lord, who said, “Nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done.” (Luke 22:42)
11 Attack problems, not people. We can get the two so confused until I remember the words and spirit of Christ (Matthew 5:43-44).
12 For some troubles. God has not given us answers—He's given us His Son. That was His gift to the thief on the cross (Luke 23:43) and to us.
13 What God thinks of us is more important than what we think of ourselves. Paul seemed to have this down pretty well. He showed that. be not only took the opinions of others with a grain of salt, but his own as well (1 Corinthians 4:3-4; Romans
14 Fear God—not to run from Him, but to Him.
This might be even more basic than loving Him (Proverbs 1:7; 9:10).
15 Get knowledge—but don't depend on your knowledge. Seek to be wise—but don't rely on your wisdom. Work hard—but don't trust in your hard work. Work smart—but don't stake everything on your own cleverness and efficiency. Be ethical—but don't lean on your morality. Make plans—but don't hope in your plans. Save money—but don't trust your savings. Add up your numbers—but don't count on them. Value people—but don't depend on people. I'm intrigued with that lengthy New Testament letter that doesn't ever mention the subject of idols by name—yet abruptly ends with the words, "Little children, keep yourselves from idols" (1 John 5:21).
16 We are saved by God's mercy, not our merit; but by Christ dying, not our doing; by trusting, not by trying. If it comes down to having one or the other, we’d do well to trade all of our assets and education for this one thought (Ephesians 2:8-9).
17 "Worse than blindness is sight without vision." — Helen Keller Reminds me of Jesus, who said, "Take heed that the light which is in you is not darkness" (Luke 11:34-35).
18 Wise are those who look at others with the same generosity they offer themselves, and who look at themselves with the same critical eye they have for others. Yet look what we do! We blame others –to get the attention of ourselves. (Matthew 7:3)
19 "I found that the desire to have is soon replaced by the fear of losing. Solomon wrote a whole essay about this (Ecclesiastes)20 Use things and love people. Don’t use people and love things. Why after so many complex and profound things are considered, do the most important things in life seem so simple"
Vision Quotes
I skate to where the puck is going to be, not where it has been.
— Wayne Gretzky
Necessity can set me helpless on my back, but she cannot keep me there; nor can four walls limit my vision.
— Margaret Fairless Barber
The man who radiates good cheer, who makes life happier wherever he meets it, is always a man of vision and faith.
— Ella Wheeler Wilcox
A task without a vision is drudgery. A vision without a task is a dream. A task with a vision is victory.
What’s the use of running if you’re not on the right road?
— German proverb
A genius is one who shoots at something no one else can see, and hits it.
A Few Reasons Why I Love My Daddy
For My Daddy♥
Why A Daughter Needs A Dad
~To learn that when he says it will be okay soon, it will.
~Who will make sacrifices so she will not have to sacrifice.
~~To teach her that her value as a person is more than the way she looks.
**~~Who will laugh at her at the right times.****
*~~Who will always have time to give her hugs and kisses.*
*~~Who will always make sure she has a place to come home to.*
*~~Who will never think she is too old to need him.*
~To make the family whole and complete.
*~~Who will not punish her for her mistakes, but help her learn from them.*
*~~To teach her to believe that she deserves to be treated well.*
~To teach her to accept the differences in others.
~To teach her to weigh the consequences of her actions and make decisions accordingly.
~To tell her truthfully that she is the most beautiful of all.
~~To protect her from scary nighttime creatures.
*~~To answer the questions that keep her awake at night.*
~To make the complex simple and the painful bearable.
~~To teach her that family is more important than work.
~~To be the safe spot she can always turn to.
~~To show her how it feels to be loved unselfishly.
~To be the standard against which she will judge all men.
~~Who will influence her life, even when he isn't with her.
*~~To tell her that all is not hopeless, even when she feels it is.*
~~To join her journey when she is too afraid to walk alone.
~~So that she will have at least one hero who will not let her down.
~~To tuck her in at night.
~~To help her take risks that will build her confidence.
~~Who will let her know that while she may not be the center of someone else's world, she is the center of his.
~To learn what she should expect from her husband.
~~To teach her what it means to always be there.
~~To teach her that a man's strength is not the force of his hand or his voice,
but the kindness of his heart.
~~To teach her to be honest in all her dealings.
~~To help her try again whenever she fails.
~~So that when no one else is there for her, she can close her eyes and see him.
~~To think highly of her when no one else will.
*~~To hold her as she cries.*
~~Who teaches her she is important by stopping what he is doing to watch her.
*~~To remind her of the comfort of being held near and feeling secure.*
~~To teach her to stand up for herself.
*~~Who gives her refuge in a home secured with faith.*
*~~To show her that true love is unconditional.*
~~To teach her not to let pride get in the way of discovering new things.
~To show her all the boys are not like the one who hurt her.
~~To stand with her on the day she marries the man she hopes will be just like her father.
*~~Because without him she will have less in her life than what she deserves.*
Why A Daughter Needs A Dad
~To learn that when he says it will be okay soon, it will.
~Who will make sacrifices so she will not have to sacrifice.
~~To teach her that her value as a person is more than the way she looks.
**~~Who will laugh at her at the right times.****
*~~Who will always have time to give her hugs and kisses.*
*~~Who will always make sure she has a place to come home to.*
*~~Who will never think she is too old to need him.*
~To make the family whole and complete.
*~~Who will not punish her for her mistakes, but help her learn from them.*
*~~To teach her to believe that she deserves to be treated well.*
~To teach her to accept the differences in others.
~To teach her to weigh the consequences of her actions and make decisions accordingly.
~To tell her truthfully that she is the most beautiful of all.
~~To protect her from scary nighttime creatures.
*~~To answer the questions that keep her awake at night.*
~To make the complex simple and the painful bearable.
~~To teach her that family is more important than work.
~~To be the safe spot she can always turn to.
~~To show her how it feels to be loved unselfishly.
~To be the standard against which she will judge all men.
~~Who will influence her life, even when he isn't with her.
*~~To tell her that all is not hopeless, even when she feels it is.*
~~To join her journey when she is too afraid to walk alone.
~~So that she will have at least one hero who will not let her down.
~~To tuck her in at night.
~~To help her take risks that will build her confidence.
~~Who will let her know that while she may not be the center of someone else's world, she is the center of his.
~To learn what she should expect from her husband.
~~To teach her what it means to always be there.
~~To teach her that a man's strength is not the force of his hand or his voice,
but the kindness of his heart.
~~To teach her to be honest in all her dealings.
~~To help her try again whenever she fails.
~~So that when no one else is there for her, she can close her eyes and see him.
~~To think highly of her when no one else will.
*~~To hold her as she cries.*
~~Who teaches her she is important by stopping what he is doing to watch her.
*~~To remind her of the comfort of being held near and feeling secure.*
~~To teach her to stand up for herself.
*~~Who gives her refuge in a home secured with faith.*
*~~To show her that true love is unconditional.*
~~To teach her not to let pride get in the way of discovering new things.
~To show her all the boys are not like the one who hurt her.
~~To stand with her on the day she marries the man she hopes will be just like her father.
*~~Because without him she will have less in her life than what she deserves.*
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
"I Will Survive" and "Still I Rise" Essay
"You may shoot me with your words, You may cut me with your eyes, You may kill me with your hatefulness, But still, like air, I'll rise." These famous words spoken years ago by the powerful poet and author, Maya Angelou are spoken with dignity and strength. Her heart pouring out like an overflowing waterfall, we see her persevearance through life and her strength to not let others bring her down. In the same breath, the harsh workds of others are part of what makes stronger.
"At first I was afraid, I was petrified. Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side. But then I spent so mant nights thinking how you did me wrong, and I got strong. And I learned how to get along." These words, also brought forth years ago but by the singer GLoria Gaynor, were sand with the same fiery passion Angelou found within herself upon writing "And Still I Rise." Two powerful pieces of art performed by two very powerful and strong women. These pieces show that these women are strong and independent. They don't let what others say, hurt them or in Gloria's case, what a man does to wrong her, bring them down or leave them depressed.
Both of these works are incredibly inspiring and these women are admirable. Strength is something you've got to have in order to survive in today's society. "I Will Survive" and "Still I Rise" are written on the same foundation; the fact that what other people do can effect you. It's up to you whether it breaks you or makes you stronger.
"At first I was afraid, I was petrified. Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side. But then I spent so mant nights thinking how you did me wrong, and I got strong. And I learned how to get along." These words, also brought forth years ago but by the singer GLoria Gaynor, were sand with the same fiery passion Angelou found within herself upon writing "And Still I Rise." Two powerful pieces of art performed by two very powerful and strong women. These pieces show that these women are strong and independent. They don't let what others say, hurt them or in Gloria's case, what a man does to wrong her, bring them down or leave them depressed.
Both of these works are incredibly inspiring and these women are admirable. Strength is something you've got to have in order to survive in today's society. "I Will Survive" and "Still I Rise" are written on the same foundation; the fact that what other people do can effect you. It's up to you whether it breaks you or makes you stronger.
Random Scenes
These are a few ranom scenes I've written to put together with more scenes I havent written yet for a play. It's a work in progress but it comes to me in different patches so I don't have any other scenes but these ones that came to me. ha
THE UNFINISHED SCENE
Mr. West: (walk to doorway) Mida, your father's in the driveway (exits)
Mida: Ok (Opens eyes a little and lightly hits Derek's chest) Come on. (Starts getting up)
Derek: (Pulls Mida back onto the couch) He's not here yet. (Groggy voice with eyes closed)
Mida: Yea he is babe. (Looks at phone) He even just texted me. (Gets up)
(Derek gets up, takes Mida's hand, leads her through the house and out the front door)
(They continue to the car giggling)
Derek: Is he on his laptop?
Mida: As always...let's see if we can get his attention. (Smiles and winks as she pulls closer to Derek)
(Derek wraps his arms around Mida's waist as she wraps hers around his neck. As they start kissing, they begin getting more and more intense until they are officially making out. Derek starts pushing her toward the car and lifts her onto the hood. He starts rubbing her back and sliding a hand up the back of her shirt while his other hand rubs her leg.)
Mida: (Smiles and leans closer to Derek's ear and whispers) We're trying to get his attention, not make a death wish.
THE TRUTH & THE BREAK UP SCENE
Mida: (Almost angry) DOn't you get it? We're graduating, in just a few months. This is it, Kyle. We're going off to college, all of us. We're all going out on our own and going our separate ways. I mean, who knows how far we're all going. I know I can't let my friends influence where my future is going, but... Kyle, you guys mean the world to me and I'm not ready to lose you.
Kyle: What do you think texting and cell phones are for? There's always facebook. Mida, you're overreacting.
Mida: I am not overreacting! I know that there's texting and and and, facebook, but you're just not understand the reality of this are you? Texting? Facebook? Do you realize that we all see each otheronly once or twice a week now and we're all within 20 minutes of each other? How often fo we talk outside of when we see each other in person? Huh? I mean, if we're already caught up in our daily lives too much to talk to each other now... Do I have to go on?
Kyle: Mi, it's okay...
Mida: No its not okay! (Let's a tear slip) I don't wanna lose you guys.
Kyle: So what? Are you telling me you're not going off to college?
Mida: No. Whether I go off to college or not doesn't affect whether you do or whther any of my other friends do or not. And if I don't, then what? What am I gonna do? Work at McDonald's for the rest of my life? Constantly regretting not taking what could be the biggest oportunity of ever? I can't do that Kyle.
Kyle: Than what do you want, Mida? (Getting angry himself)
Mida: (Pauses) I just wat to konw that I'm never gonna lose you...
Kyle: Oh, Mida. You couldn't lose me if you tried. (Smiles and hugs Mida as she starts crying)
(TANYA enters; feeling confused and awkward by her boyfriend hugging a close mutual friend)
Tanya: What's...what's goin on? (Laughs awkwardly as Mida pulls away from Kyle)
Mida: I was just... (Looks Kyle in the eye) leaving. Goodbye Kyle. (Nods and partially smiles at Tanya and then exits)
Tanya: What was that? What's going on?
Kyle: It's nothing. She's just a little upset. Anyway, I, uh, I wanted to talk to you about something.
Tanya: Sure, what's happening baby?
Kyle: (Takes a deep breath then exhales) I'm... I'm going off for college, in about seven months.
Tanya: Yea, I know that.
Kyle: I'm... I'm going all the way to Georgia. All the way...
Tanya: So what is it Kyle?
Kyle: I... I don't think I can do that to you.
Tanya: So what? What are you talking about?
Kyle: I can't... I can't let you miss out on life while I'm out living and making mine.
Tanya: What are you trying to say?
Kyle: I think it's best if we just (pauses) if we're just friends.
Tanya: Wait, are you breaking up with me?
Kyle: I... Tanya, you can't be limited when I leave. I don't want you to miss out on life because you're staying and waiting for.
Tanya: I... I don't know what to say.
Kyle: I'm sorry Tanya.
Tanya: I... I... I gotta go. Bye Kyle. (Starts crying and exits)
(Kyle reaches out as the door slams and then hangs his head) END SCENE
THE AFTERMATH OF THE FIRST DATE SCENE
(Car pulls up to the curb in front of a big, beautiful, white house. Derek and Mida slide out of the backseat holding hands and smiling)
Derek: Ugh, I gotta go home.
Mida: Derek, you are home. (Smiles)
Derek: No. See I'm not home until I step onto that curb. Until then, I'm still with you. (Smiles and wraps arms around Mida's waist as he pulls her closer)
Mida: (Smiles) Oh ok. (Laughs a little and looks into Derek's eyes as she puts her arms around his waist)
Derek: Man, I'm so lucky to have you.
Mida: No, I'm the lucky one.
Derek: No, I am
Mida:: Are we gonna have this conversation again? (Smiles)
Derek: (Leans in and kisses Mida) I'm the lucky one. (Smiles)
Mida: (Smiles) Ok, ok. Whatever you have to tell yourself to get to sleep at night.
Derek: (Laughs a little and leans back to look at Mida) You're mine. (Almost as an epiphany)
Mida: Yea... I'm yours. (Kisses Derek)
(As Mida goes to pull back from the kiss, Derek pushes in and continues to kiss her)
Mr. Hope: (From the driver's seat) Save some for later.
Mida: (Leans back, smiles) I love my dad, I love my dad, I love my dad...
Derek: (Laughs) He's gonna kill you...
Mida: (Shakes her head and smiles) Nuh uh.
Derek: (Nods his head and smiles) Yea huh.
Mida: (Laughs a little) Nuh uh!
(Slow, romantic music starts playing in the car. Mida looks through the door to see her dad smiling at her)
Mida: Once again, I love my dad. (Smiles and laughs a little)
Derek: This is a good song. As soon as this song is over, I gotta go home though.
Mida: (Gives the puppy dog face) I could just kidnap you. (Smiles)
Derek: Oh, ok. I'm cool with that. But my parents...not so much.
Mida: ((Laughs as she hugs him tighter and leans her head on his chest as they stand there in silence for a bit) I'm so happy to be with you. (Smiles)
Derek: Baby I'm happy to be withyou too. (Smiles and rests his chin on Mida's head) But I think this song is just about over.
Mida: No it's not. (Laughs a little then gives a sad face) You have to go home now?
Derek: Unfortunately...(Kisses Mida one last time) I'll miss you.
Mida: I'll miss you too. (Gives a sad face)
Derek: I'm gonna shower and then I'll text you, ok?
Mida: Ok. (Smiles)
(Derek holdss Mida's hand as he reluctantly steps onto the curbs and gets to the sidewalk then finally lets go hesitantly. They exchange looks and blow kisses to each other and then Mida gets into the car)
Mida: (Buckles her seatbelt and looks at her dad) Don't say, a word.
Mr. Hope: What? (Smiles) END SCENE
A FEW OF THE SCENES THAT ARE STILL IN THE MAKING
*Mida breaks up with Derek for the same reason Kyle breaks up with Tanya*
*Kissing Brdge scene - Mida & Kyle*
THE UNFINISHED SCENE
Mr. West: (walk to doorway) Mida, your father's in the driveway (exits)
Mida: Ok (Opens eyes a little and lightly hits Derek's chest) Come on. (Starts getting up)
Derek: (Pulls Mida back onto the couch) He's not here yet. (Groggy voice with eyes closed)
Mida: Yea he is babe. (Looks at phone) He even just texted me. (Gets up)
(Derek gets up, takes Mida's hand, leads her through the house and out the front door)
(They continue to the car giggling)
Derek: Is he on his laptop?
Mida: As always...let's see if we can get his attention. (Smiles and winks as she pulls closer to Derek)
(Derek wraps his arms around Mida's waist as she wraps hers around his neck. As they start kissing, they begin getting more and more intense until they are officially making out. Derek starts pushing her toward the car and lifts her onto the hood. He starts rubbing her back and sliding a hand up the back of her shirt while his other hand rubs her leg.)
Mida: (Smiles and leans closer to Derek's ear and whispers) We're trying to get his attention, not make a death wish.
THE TRUTH & THE BREAK UP SCENE
Mida: (Almost angry) DOn't you get it? We're graduating, in just a few months. This is it, Kyle. We're going off to college, all of us. We're all going out on our own and going our separate ways. I mean, who knows how far we're all going. I know I can't let my friends influence where my future is going, but... Kyle, you guys mean the world to me and I'm not ready to lose you.
Kyle: What do you think texting and cell phones are for? There's always facebook. Mida, you're overreacting.
Mida: I am not overreacting! I know that there's texting and and and, facebook, but you're just not understand the reality of this are you? Texting? Facebook? Do you realize that we all see each otheronly once or twice a week now and we're all within 20 minutes of each other? How often fo we talk outside of when we see each other in person? Huh? I mean, if we're already caught up in our daily lives too much to talk to each other now... Do I have to go on?
Kyle: Mi, it's okay...
Mida: No its not okay! (Let's a tear slip) I don't wanna lose you guys.
Kyle: So what? Are you telling me you're not going off to college?
Mida: No. Whether I go off to college or not doesn't affect whether you do or whther any of my other friends do or not. And if I don't, then what? What am I gonna do? Work at McDonald's for the rest of my life? Constantly regretting not taking what could be the biggest oportunity of ever? I can't do that Kyle.
Kyle: Than what do you want, Mida? (Getting angry himself)
Mida: (Pauses) I just wat to konw that I'm never gonna lose you...
Kyle: Oh, Mida. You couldn't lose me if you tried. (Smiles and hugs Mida as she starts crying)
(TANYA enters; feeling confused and awkward by her boyfriend hugging a close mutual friend)
Tanya: What's...what's goin on? (Laughs awkwardly as Mida pulls away from Kyle)
Mida: I was just... (Looks Kyle in the eye) leaving. Goodbye Kyle. (Nods and partially smiles at Tanya and then exits)
Tanya: What was that? What's going on?
Kyle: It's nothing. She's just a little upset. Anyway, I, uh, I wanted to talk to you about something.
Tanya: Sure, what's happening baby?
Kyle: (Takes a deep breath then exhales) I'm... I'm going off for college, in about seven months.
Tanya: Yea, I know that.
Kyle: I'm... I'm going all the way to Georgia. All the way...
Tanya: So what is it Kyle?
Kyle: I... I don't think I can do that to you.
Tanya: So what? What are you talking about?
Kyle: I can't... I can't let you miss out on life while I'm out living and making mine.
Tanya: What are you trying to say?
Kyle: I think it's best if we just (pauses) if we're just friends.
Tanya: Wait, are you breaking up with me?
Kyle: I... Tanya, you can't be limited when I leave. I don't want you to miss out on life because you're staying and waiting for.
Tanya: I... I don't know what to say.
Kyle: I'm sorry Tanya.
Tanya: I... I... I gotta go. Bye Kyle. (Starts crying and exits)
(Kyle reaches out as the door slams and then hangs his head) END SCENE
THE AFTERMATH OF THE FIRST DATE SCENE
(Car pulls up to the curb in front of a big, beautiful, white house. Derek and Mida slide out of the backseat holding hands and smiling)
Derek: Ugh, I gotta go home.
Mida: Derek, you are home. (Smiles)
Derek: No. See I'm not home until I step onto that curb. Until then, I'm still with you. (Smiles and wraps arms around Mida's waist as he pulls her closer)
Mida: (Smiles) Oh ok. (Laughs a little and looks into Derek's eyes as she puts her arms around his waist)
Derek: Man, I'm so lucky to have you.
Mida: No, I'm the lucky one.
Derek: No, I am
Mida:: Are we gonna have this conversation again? (Smiles)
Derek: (Leans in and kisses Mida) I'm the lucky one. (Smiles)
Mida: (Smiles) Ok, ok. Whatever you have to tell yourself to get to sleep at night.
Derek: (Laughs a little and leans back to look at Mida) You're mine. (Almost as an epiphany)
Mida: Yea... I'm yours. (Kisses Derek)
(As Mida goes to pull back from the kiss, Derek pushes in and continues to kiss her)
Mr. Hope: (From the driver's seat) Save some for later.
Mida: (Leans back, smiles) I love my dad, I love my dad, I love my dad...
Derek: (Laughs) He's gonna kill you...
Mida: (Shakes her head and smiles) Nuh uh.
Derek: (Nods his head and smiles) Yea huh.
Mida: (Laughs a little) Nuh uh!
(Slow, romantic music starts playing in the car. Mida looks through the door to see her dad smiling at her)
Mida: Once again, I love my dad. (Smiles and laughs a little)
Derek: This is a good song. As soon as this song is over, I gotta go home though.
Mida: (Gives the puppy dog face) I could just kidnap you. (Smiles)
Derek: Oh, ok. I'm cool with that. But my parents...not so much.
Mida: ((Laughs as she hugs him tighter and leans her head on his chest as they stand there in silence for a bit) I'm so happy to be with you. (Smiles)
Derek: Baby I'm happy to be withyou too. (Smiles and rests his chin on Mida's head) But I think this song is just about over.
Mida: No it's not. (Laughs a little then gives a sad face) You have to go home now?
Derek: Unfortunately...(Kisses Mida one last time) I'll miss you.
Mida: I'll miss you too. (Gives a sad face)
Derek: I'm gonna shower and then I'll text you, ok?
Mida: Ok. (Smiles)
(Derek holdss Mida's hand as he reluctantly steps onto the curbs and gets to the sidewalk then finally lets go hesitantly. They exchange looks and blow kisses to each other and then Mida gets into the car)
Mida: (Buckles her seatbelt and looks at her dad) Don't say, a word.
Mr. Hope: What? (Smiles) END SCENE
A FEW OF THE SCENES THAT ARE STILL IN THE MAKING
*Mida breaks up with Derek for the same reason Kyle breaks up with Tanya*
*Kissing Brdge scene - Mida & Kyle*
BFFL? Def.
Oh my. How many years has it been? Too many. How many pounds? Too many. How many tears? Uncountable. But I need you again, I miss you and all you did for me. But look at who've I've become. This inadequate, imperfect(as though I ever were), hideous beast who is worthy of nothing, not even you. But I do pledge my allegiance to you if you agree to once again accompany me on this walk, run, to be the best me, the most beautiful me. You never said it was easy, but I'm ready.
I've started down your path already, but I need you to grab me and not let go. At least not until I'm all I can be. And only with you is that possible. Ana, you've been all I had for years upon years, and they took you away, made me turn my back on you and walk away..quickly. But this time it's you and me. There's no turning back. I would've loved to walk deeper down your path of perfection last time, but the other caught hold of me, told me it was wrong..we were wrong. But they were wrong. This time, I let nothing stand between me, and what I want, who I want to be. So you'll help me right? I mean, I almost miss the early mornings we spent together getting me in shape and redirecting the calories I shouldn't have eaten the day before. Ya know, it was a lovely little secret that I knew neither of us would tell.
Since I last disowned you, I have become a person I don't dare look at in the mirror anymore. I disgust myself. And I know that you're the only one who can help me fix this problem. Please, you're all I've got. If I can just walk into the light of your tunnel..things would begin to change. I can't wait for our journey to really pick up. Best friends for life? Oh definitely. Thank you Ana, for all you've done and yet to do.
Sincerely,
Me
I've started down your path already, but I need you to grab me and not let go. At least not until I'm all I can be. And only with you is that possible. Ana, you've been all I had for years upon years, and they took you away, made me turn my back on you and walk away..quickly. But this time it's you and me. There's no turning back. I would've loved to walk deeper down your path of perfection last time, but the other caught hold of me, told me it was wrong..we were wrong. But they were wrong. This time, I let nothing stand between me, and what I want, who I want to be. So you'll help me right? I mean, I almost miss the early mornings we spent together getting me in shape and redirecting the calories I shouldn't have eaten the day before. Ya know, it was a lovely little secret that I knew neither of us would tell.
Since I last disowned you, I have become a person I don't dare look at in the mirror anymore. I disgust myself. And I know that you're the only one who can help me fix this problem. Please, you're all I've got. If I can just walk into the light of your tunnel..things would begin to change. I can't wait for our journey to really pick up. Best friends for life? Oh definitely. Thank you Ana, for all you've done and yet to do.
Sincerely,
Me
Monday, August 30, 2010
Ana Tips (1st Ana Journal)
~Cough Drops
~No eating past 6pm
~Lots of veggies (Lettuce has no cals)
~Cardio 30-60 minutes 6 days a week
~Change workout weekly
~Workout twice a day
~Drink lots of water
~No dairy
~Sleep
~1 glass of wwater every hour(at least)
~ice water is best
~Eat ice or gum when hungry
~Aerobics
~Cold showers
~Brush teeth constantly
~Exercise twice the amount of calories eaten
~Walk when you're hungry
~Sleep at least 6 hours a day
~Prepare a list of excuses for not eating
~Make a scrapbook with pix of skinny models, a list of all the reasons you wanna lose weight, and a food diary
~Make a list of "bad" foods that you crave and pick one to take out of your diet completely each day that no matter what you won't eat again
~If you drink any alcohol, stick to a glass of wine, it has the least calories (80 Calories)
~Limit portion sizes to no more than one cup because your stomach will then expand
~The smell of coffee is supposed to supress appetite
~6 small meals a day( 2 apples, split them up so you can have 6 meals of them)
~Anti-heartburn pills kill the acid that builds and makes you hungry
~FUN FACT: It takes 20 minutes for your brain to realize your stomach's full
~When you get hunger pains, curl into a ball. It makes them go away
~Smoking curbs the appetite
~Lots of fiber makes you feel full and takes faat out of the body
~When you get hungry, chug water til you feel full
~Weight yourself before and after you eat to see how much you gain from what you eat
~Celery has negative calories and actually burns them
~Read the nutrion label! Fat-free doesn't mean calorie free. More fiber, less fat and calories
~Don't eat a lot at once
~No eating in front of the computer or tv or anything distracting from portion size
~Eating 4 100 cal meals is better than eating 1 400 calorie meal
~If you hit a weight loss plateau, binge a little to get it back on track
~Take a sip of water between bites, it reduces how much you actually eat
~If you have a craving, go prepare it, chew it, then spit it out. After, wash you mouth with water 3 times before swallowing a sip so no calories are digested.
~Don't eat foods that you don't know the exact amount of calories
~Track progress with measurements, not just the scale. The measuring tape isn't effected by weather or time of day
~When you wanna eat, put on a song that you are guarenteed to sing along to, this will disctract you from eating
~Buy awesome jeans that are a size or 2 too small and put them where you see them everyday as motivation to lose weight. When they fit, restart the cycle
~Use diet pills with caution
~No soda
~Water fasting cleanses the body of stored fats and whatnot
~Fasting can clear the skin, whiten the eyes, initiate rapid weight loss, make hair grow quick, and shrink the stomach
~Laxatives don't help!
~Eat smaller portions on smaller plates
~Eat low-cal soup-barely any fat and cals and fills you up fast
~Spinning around in circles curbs your appetite
~Tums curbs stomach acid that can make you hungry
~Set a goal weight, but also a weight that you refuse to hit if you gain too much weight
~Rice cakes are your best friend(30 cals, but only eat a few)
~fitday.com or caloriecounter.com will help track foods eaten and exercise and calories burned
~Get an Ana buddy! It will give you someone to not only keep you on track, but also someone to compare yourself to and "compete" against to lose the weight
These are some of my tips n secrets, from me, to you. HOPE THEY HELP!!
~No eating past 6pm
~Lots of veggies (Lettuce has no cals)
~Cardio 30-60 minutes 6 days a week
~Change workout weekly
~Workout twice a day
~Drink lots of water
~No dairy
~Sleep
~1 glass of wwater every hour(at least)
~ice water is best
~Eat ice or gum when hungry
~Aerobics
~Cold showers
~Brush teeth constantly
~Exercise twice the amount of calories eaten
~Walk when you're hungry
~Sleep at least 6 hours a day
~Prepare a list of excuses for not eating
~Make a scrapbook with pix of skinny models, a list of all the reasons you wanna lose weight, and a food diary
~Make a list of "bad" foods that you crave and pick one to take out of your diet completely each day that no matter what you won't eat again
~If you drink any alcohol, stick to a glass of wine, it has the least calories (80 Calories)
~Limit portion sizes to no more than one cup because your stomach will then expand
~The smell of coffee is supposed to supress appetite
~6 small meals a day( 2 apples, split them up so you can have 6 meals of them)
~Anti-heartburn pills kill the acid that builds and makes you hungry
~FUN FACT: It takes 20 minutes for your brain to realize your stomach's full
~When you get hunger pains, curl into a ball. It makes them go away
~Smoking curbs the appetite
~Lots of fiber makes you feel full and takes faat out of the body
~When you get hungry, chug water til you feel full
~Weight yourself before and after you eat to see how much you gain from what you eat
~Celery has negative calories and actually burns them
~Read the nutrion label! Fat-free doesn't mean calorie free. More fiber, less fat and calories
~Don't eat a lot at once
~No eating in front of the computer or tv or anything distracting from portion size
~Eating 4 100 cal meals is better than eating 1 400 calorie meal
~If you hit a weight loss plateau, binge a little to get it back on track
~Take a sip of water between bites, it reduces how much you actually eat
~If you have a craving, go prepare it, chew it, then spit it out. After, wash you mouth with water 3 times before swallowing a sip so no calories are digested.
~Don't eat foods that you don't know the exact amount of calories
~Track progress with measurements, not just the scale. The measuring tape isn't effected by weather or time of day
~When you wanna eat, put on a song that you are guarenteed to sing along to, this will disctract you from eating
~Buy awesome jeans that are a size or 2 too small and put them where you see them everyday as motivation to lose weight. When they fit, restart the cycle
~Use diet pills with caution
~No soda
~Water fasting cleanses the body of stored fats and whatnot
~Fasting can clear the skin, whiten the eyes, initiate rapid weight loss, make hair grow quick, and shrink the stomach
~Laxatives don't help!
~Eat smaller portions on smaller plates
~Eat low-cal soup-barely any fat and cals and fills you up fast
~Spinning around in circles curbs your appetite
~Tums curbs stomach acid that can make you hungry
~Set a goal weight, but also a weight that you refuse to hit if you gain too much weight
~Rice cakes are your best friend(30 cals, but only eat a few)
~fitday.com or caloriecounter.com will help track foods eaten and exercise and calories burned
~Get an Ana buddy! It will give you someone to not only keep you on track, but also someone to compare yourself to and "compete" against to lose the weight
These are some of my tips n secrets, from me, to you. HOPE THEY HELP!!
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