Letter to My "Father"

Dear Father,
I have so much to say to you. I would like to start out by saying thank you so much for being there my whole life.I mean, I really appreciate the fact that you left when I was two months old. Because of your fantabulous decision to leave I hope you enjoy watching me sit quietly at your funeral as I will have no memories to share nor good thoughts of you. A man who leaves his wife to raise three little girls when his youngest is two months old? And you expect people to respect you as a man and even as a PASTOR? I'd like to ask you to take a step into my shoes right quick. Look at yourself from my perspective.Would you respect yourself? Think long and hard on that.
I'd also like to tell you that my life is my own and I definitely don't want any input from a man who left his own family and ran around screwin anything with a vag. I will do what I want with my life whether you like it or not. If I wanna be back in my own state for my sister's birthday, I will be. Education may be important but my family is important too. Maybe if you stuck around long enough after I was born you might know that. AND not to mention that whether I'm top or not, if people are my real friends they'll love me regardless of who I am and what I'm doing and how successful I am. If I turn out to be a noboby, it's nice to know that my own father will shun me and forget that I exist. Awesome. Way to be an asshole. Whatever. I don't need you. All you do is bring even more negativity to my life and that's the last thing I need. What the hell. Every time I talk to you I find myself even more disgusted with you than the last time we spoke which is only every 4 months anyway.
Oh, almost forgot. What the hell kind of pastor are you and who the hell ordained you? As a pastor, and a Christian, you are called to love everyone. You are called to help "the least of these" and not to judge. Every time I speak with one of my MANY gay best friends, I think of a little story you told me. The one where two gay guys got into your cab and you kicked them out because they were kissing. WHAT THE HELL! Who are you to judge? You know what? Who are YOU to judge? Who are you to tell someone else that the way they're living is wrong? Only God can judge and as much as you;d like to believe it, you're not Him. Get over it and move on. Love everyone and save yourself grief. Why do you hate them? What have they ever done to you? And even if they have wronged you somehow, two wrongs don't make a right. As a pastor you should be all for forgiveness. Move on! Ugh. You disgust me and make me want to barf. I hope you've had fun ruining the life of your only child that actually still talks to you. Good job asshole. Way to be. You're a terrible pastor and a horrendous father. I hope you're happy.